|A Small Portion of Christine's Garden|
Experiencing inner peace has become vital to me, not only as a writer but as a person. In my previous post I wrote about laying aside my writing for five years due to a decided lack of peace that had nothing to do with my actual life. My marriage was and remains to this day happy and loving, my children were all reasonably fine, and I had no chronic illness or extreme financial woes. My lack of peace was 100% due to the so-called marketing of my books.
How heart weary I was of striving, striving, striving, to push my books forward. So, I stopped, and truly believed I would never take up the novelist's quill again.
"But", you say, "we are told to follow our dreams. Reach for the stars. You can do it."
Thing is, not all of us will achieve the success of Stephen King or JK Rowling. There are bills to pay so a steady job is needed. There are children to raise with all the love and attention we can give them. A spouse to faithfully support. Or we must rest because we are totally exhausted. There comes a time when we may have to set our dreams aside.
A harsh truth, but one that I hope is refreshing.
Rachel and I were chatting the other day, her in her Houston suburb, me in my small town Alberta Canada. She said something to the affect, "Life is too short to use up our precious minutes in something that does not bring us peace and happiness." That is the place I had come to.
I scaled back for my sanity. With relief I took up a part-time job for income. For those five years on my days off, I soaked myself in planting and caring for my garden. I read books in said garden for pure pleasure. My inner peace became paramount.
- So, I ask, is it time for you as a writer to consider scaling back?
- Is publication a good idea for you right now?
- Can you write in smaller increments?
- Can you delay for a short while or a long while?
- Are there ways to have inner peace and keep your writing dream alive?
After my five-year furlough I now work on my current novel only because it is my desire. I do my research because I like it. I see the work growing under my hands like the mounding clay of a sculptor, or a flowerbed under the worn gloves of a gardener, and I find joy.
And this is my wish for you. If writing fills you up, write. If it drains you, put it aside for now. Life is too short for anything else.
These days I write in utter peace, having no expectations for how it will be received by the publishing world. I simply enjoy the wonder of creating a fictional world to share with whomever will wish to read it.
I am a writer.
So happy youve found that”sweet spot”. Much love, EstherReplyDelete
Excellent article, Christine. Your perspective is valid, not just for writers, but for many of us in various situations.ReplyDelete